It's just inexpiable how I've always sought for your congratulatory message everytime I achieve simple milestones in my life - maybe because you're someone that everybody looks up to.. but no, I think it's because of my utmost RESPECT and TRUST for a Joanna Roa, for who you really are. For some odd reasons, I have always felt your sincerity and love whenever you give me pieces of advice about exemplifying True Beauty, that of a kind that never fades, and I can't be more thankful for everything.
You know what Tita Jo, I can still remember the way you laughed at me (together with Nonoy) when I shared to you my recent beliefs about love just a few days ago. I know it was just a random call from you all and I didn't know what moved me to check my phone even when I was in the middle of an intense work here in the Metro. I was just glad how you took my anxieties away just by the thought of calling me or whatsoever. I never knew that it will be our LAST.. my last conversation with you, my last opportunity to hear your voice.
Tita, it pains me to write something like this but I just have to admit that I am more than affected to receive a text message early this morning that you're already gone - yes, you're gone and you just left me just that fast. I called Keneth to verify the news because I was forcing myself not to believe that you just passed away. AND yes, the verification of your death hit me straight to the heart, to no avail. Our memories together flashed back, our moments during the search for the Ambassadress of Goodwill, our random meetups in Jasaan, our random talks and everything else about us which definitely made me smile.
Tita, truth be told, I appreciate how you've touched my life. Even now that you're gone too soon, you're still teaching me one great lesson that I couldn't just read in any Accounting Standards that I am trying to grasp to date - There is more to life than enjoying one's own happiness, and that is being able to LOVE AND INSPIRE other people just by our mere existence. And believe me, Tita, you're one of the few who lived life in the most beautiful way that they could.
I love you so much, Tita Jo. My fervent prayers are with you. Rest in peace.