Wednesday, January 29, 2014

If You Just Let Me

I was sorting my files and found this bitter sweet piece of something (something because I don't wanna call this a poem, that's why!) Hahaha! I have written this shortly a year ago, hence the ambiguity. More so, I terribly miss blogging so much (but I don't have the luxury of time) that's why I thought about sharing this piece to you rather than putting up a very long blog post about something that I was craving to write since forever Sunday! The feels!!!

Anyway, insert backstory of If You Just Let Me, here!

 If You Just Let Me

I'm not being me.
This is not me.
I am going nowhere to the place -
The place where I'm supposed to be.

I cannot understand.
All I wanna do is run.
Escape because I hate this place.
Escape because I hate this place.

Senseless.
Finding meaning without anything to hold on.


Meaningless.
Finding sense without anything to dwell upon.


Release me.

You know I don't love this.
THIS which makes me cry.
THIS which makes me cry.

Release me.

Let me go.

I'm not being me.
This is not me.
I am going nowhere to the place -
The place where I'm supposed to be.

You know I'll be happy.
If you just let me.

Let me.
If you just let me.

I can be me.

  
P.S. I'm not abandoning my blog site!!! I am just very busy #Huhuhu (Okay 10 minutes is up!!!) Get back to work, self! HAHAHA Bye! Let's continue to make this world a happy place!!! I MISSED YOU, GUYS!!!  ;) 

Wednesday, January 01, 2014

2013: Of Living and Loving

The past few days, I was more than excited to share my experiences similar to what I have written for 2012. (You may read it here) And while I was more than ready, yet again, to create a blog post yesterday, I backed off because of so many realizations---Suddenly, I remembered that I started my year with an illness which caused me to temporarily leave Makati for more than quite a week; I became unsure of the career path that I took; I lost my younger sister that I dearly love and; just so when you could remember, I had my appendectomy last December. 

Perfect. 

You know, 2013 taught me lots of things that I could not have fully understood if not through everything that I have gone through. I learned that---sometimes, it's okay to be unsure; to fall short; to mourn. 

But more importantly, I learned, that when you hit the lowest of the low, there's no other way than soaring the highest of the high.

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In fairness, I started entertaining guy friends during 2013! Hehe. I dedicated my 2012 to my laude dream, CPA Board Exam and getting an awesome career. So I thought that it was about time, come 2013?!!! Hahaha!!! During 2013, I learned all the more how to take good care of my heart. I learned to be patient, most specially in waiting for the right one (A+ for someone who's very impatient like me!) I also learned to consult my friends whenever I like someone. It doesn't hurt to get pieces of advice, right? Hehe. When you're 22, you really don't just settle for the futile, kilig2x feeling. You know what I mean. ;)
If there's something that I won't trade for anything else, I believe it will always be the gift of friendship and love that God has blessed me through the years. 
I am very grateful to my SGV Makati family for making me smile even during the busy season!!! :)
Friends, this is where I usually walk everyday while pretending that I'm on a music video! Mwahaha!!! The girl beside me is Ate Jhel, my roomie for 6 months. I miss you, Ate
After many months of playing patintero with a number of vehicles in the Metro, I was then assigned to one of my favorite engagements!!! Insert lots of reasons here! Hehe. 
Meet my family! HAHAHA I mean, my workmates. They're really like a family to me. Swear.  
I'm already running out of words. Nuaaah. Hi, PPG, MG and sibs! Love you! :* 
My come back in Makati! Asdfghjkl~ 
My turnover in the Camiguin Island was the saddest among all the turnovers that I have experienced. (I lost my sister during these days). Thanks to my late, younger sister for giving me strength, though. 
I am also thankful to my SGV CDO family. Special mention to Cziarry and Karen for allowing me to kiss their cheeks!!! Always. HAHAHA Sorry. Clingy friend is clingy. I love you!!!
I love the Christmas Season because I also get to spend my time with the people that I dearly love. Lots of reunions and friends and food hahaha yeyyy such a happy, merry season!!! 

And during 2013, I also felt so much love. ;)

HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!!! :* Let's claim a fabulous 2014!!! 
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